A 40-day walk

My walk with God has all the while been staggering. Despite sharing during Crusade DGs that I have been weak in my relationship with God, I have not done anything about it. Perhaps, I did... try... but it has ever been so tough. Whenever I settle down to read the Bible, my MSN box pops up, or my mom walks in and started talking or something else comes up. Whenever I want to pray, I would just fall off asleep.
This time round, I must ensure that I walk closer to God. There are things I would like to ask God of, but am ashamed because I seem to have lost the connection to God. I'm having difficulty praying... somehow, things seem different... I can't seem to pour everything out to God and let Him know... I would really like to resume my relationship with Him and let Him lead me through my life again. Let Him open up my eyes and see carefully what I should see. Let me be back into His embrace.