terrible depressed

Recently on the news, there have been ads abt curing depression early n stuff... makes me remb an old friend... she suffered from depression, just like her dad... then occasionally she would try and cut her wrist... so scary right... thank gdness she went on medication and now she's ok le...

im sad and depressed... coz im fat...
well, my mom n sis keep saying so... ppl around me tell me im not... but its very very depressing... everyday at home, my mom goes like..."aiyoh fat lady", "eat so much, so fat le", "fat guitar belongs to fat owner", "still dun go exercise ah"
sian loz... i try alot of methods le... dun eat meals lah, eat diet pills lah, drink water only lah... blah blah... but stupid me so weak, stomach alwayz growling in lecture... otherwise alwayz gastric... still never get thinner... how... must be determined... dun eat for one whole week... MUST DUN EAT... arghhh