I wonder...

When I was younger, I wonder what it is to be like to grow up. I wonder how does being in love feels like. I like people but people don't seem to like me back. When someone finally shows concern and love, I wonder what it's like to go into a relationship. When I watch love dramas, I wonder how it feels like to hold someone's hand. I wonder how it feels to be be hugged or kissed. I wonder if others feel the same way as I feel. When you are in a relationship, you wonder how you would live your life with the person in the future. You start to wonder how it is like to be married. You wonder how you would like to be parents of your children.
Watching love dramas is a hobby never changing for me. I'm still submerging myself in fantasies and fairy tales. Not that I'm complaining about what I have now. But sometimes, it really feels good to be in another world - an imagined world. Where the prince charming is prince charming and no worries to lay you down.
I have grown up and of course, grown sideways as well, over these years.
And I thank each and everyone of you who have provided me so much love for everything. Especially for those of you who gave me 'first-time experience', you know who you are.
I love each and everyone of you, esp. the men of my life...