It's been raining the whole evening, and thank God that He let it rained after I had bought my dinner from LJS and stepped into the house, so I could enjoy the comfort of the house.
I hate it when it is the time of the month. Feels so moody, tired, and super irritated because of the weakness and pain. Is there really something wrong inside me that I should consult a gynae?
I hope not.
Recently, just picked up a good book, or rather some good books. Books by Tim LaHye and friends (?) Although it is fiction, it makes me really want to search on biblical archaeology. Book 2 I'm reading now talks about finding the Noah's Ark. Haven't finish the book yet, but it's enough to keep me want to research on this topic. Will I be like Isis or Murphy when they found the Ark? How will I react?
The story of Noah and the Flood is very real and it is a promise that God will come again. And as Christians, we know that He has promised He will not send the rain again (as He promised to Noah with the rainbow) but this time when He comes again, He will send fire - which I feel is even more terrible than the first.
Which is more terrible? Dying from drowning or dying from burning? But this fire will be an eternal fire. Those who are not saved will be always in constant burning. Anyway, tomorrow will go to the library to pick up book 3. One thing good about the Yishun community library, it has a full collection...
Today, once again ponder on the issue of no friends. What is my life without any friends?
It's been about 2 months with HOS. I'm surprised at myself that I can have an idea how to better lead the choir! I guess it's from learning from Lee lao shi. The basics of choral vocal and how to have a good sound. Singing in the choir is very different from singing pop or singing solo. You have a good voice doesn't necessary mean you will sing well in a choir. A choir is a group attitude. It takes every one in the choir and their attitude to form a good choir. So what if you have good singers but you do not sing as a choir? A choir sings with one voice and in God's choir, you sing with one heart. You must put aside your differences. And in a choir, the conductor is the man. No matter who you are, what your status, it is important to respect the conductor. Without the correct attitude, even if you sing for 100 years, the choir will never grow.
My voice is still very weak. Especially for solo singing. And I do still get stage fright no matter how I try to control myself. This actually affects my singing too. I am not proud of my music background or my singing. But sometimes, people may feel this way. My fear in the HOS now is when I meet my turn to pray. Praying is hard for me. Praying for some many people including the pastor is very stressful for me and worst still, praying in mandarin. That is why the Thursday prayer meeting scares me. I find all ways to avoid it.
I have so much thoughts but I'm so lazy today.
Shall end here...
I hate it when it is the time of the month. Feels so moody, tired, and super irritated because of the weakness and pain. Is there really something wrong inside me that I should consult a gynae?
I hope not.
Recently, just picked up a good book, or rather some good books. Books by Tim LaHye and friends (?) Although it is fiction, it makes me really want to search on biblical archaeology. Book 2 I'm reading now talks about finding the Noah's Ark. Haven't finish the book yet, but it's enough to keep me want to research on this topic. Will I be like Isis or Murphy when they found the Ark? How will I react?
The story of Noah and the Flood is very real and it is a promise that God will come again. And as Christians, we know that He has promised He will not send the rain again (as He promised to Noah with the rainbow) but this time when He comes again, He will send fire - which I feel is even more terrible than the first.
Which is more terrible? Dying from drowning or dying from burning? But this fire will be an eternal fire. Those who are not saved will be always in constant burning. Anyway, tomorrow will go to the library to pick up book 3. One thing good about the Yishun community library, it has a full collection...
Today, once again ponder on the issue of no friends. What is my life without any friends?
It's been about 2 months with HOS. I'm surprised at myself that I can have an idea how to better lead the choir! I guess it's from learning from Lee lao shi. The basics of choral vocal and how to have a good sound. Singing in the choir is very different from singing pop or singing solo. You have a good voice doesn't necessary mean you will sing well in a choir. A choir is a group attitude. It takes every one in the choir and their attitude to form a good choir. So what if you have good singers but you do not sing as a choir? A choir sings with one voice and in God's choir, you sing with one heart. You must put aside your differences. And in a choir, the conductor is the man. No matter who you are, what your status, it is important to respect the conductor. Without the correct attitude, even if you sing for 100 years, the choir will never grow.
My voice is still very weak. Especially for solo singing. And I do still get stage fright no matter how I try to control myself. This actually affects my singing too. I am not proud of my music background or my singing. But sometimes, people may feel this way. My fear in the HOS now is when I meet my turn to pray. Praying is hard for me. Praying for some many people including the pastor is very stressful for me and worst still, praying in mandarin. That is why the Thursday prayer meeting scares me. I find all ways to avoid it.
I have so much thoughts but I'm so lazy today.
Shall end here...
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