Thursday blues
Here I am sitting in the office with nothing to do once again. Maybe for some people, it is good to have nothing to do yet still continue to receive a wage monthly. But I feel that my brain is de-generating away. My brain cells are beginning to de-function. They are already very lazy, and now worst, totally not functioning at all.
So, why do I not have anything to do at all? Well, my vessels are sailing and usually the problems however big, get resolved within a few hours maximum. And besides, the so-called problems do not occupy the full few hours. It usually require waiting and waiting, and more waiting.
For the first two years, there were plenty to learn because everything was new and fresh. Then things began to stablise during the third year. Now, I'm approaching my fourth, things are beginning to get boring. (That's why I'm here on blogger.) The company is not intending to teach us any further. No chance at trying chartering. It is not as if I am hard-core about learning chartering. But then, there's nothing new on operations. I'm not sure what I am looking for either. But I know I don't want it this way. I want some progress.
The hierachy here is also terrible. The bosses claim that the company is losing $, so we need to cut down on the costs such as paper, electricity, phone bills, etc. And there they are, spending $ flying on business class for redundant business trips (as they claimed), buying new furniture when the old ones are less than a year old. They freeze our wages, reduce our bonuses, cut our business trips, cut our sponsorships. So, what is the motivation to work here further?
I am looking forward to going back to school. I hope SP accepts my application. That way, my brain cells can start functioning again. Japanese classes are difficult but not stressful enough to motivate me to study. Well, since I have nothing to do here in the office, I'm taking the time to study and revise Japanese, since my final test is coming again. But my brain is... @#$%^&*, it never remembers. So, what I have studied 5 mins ago, I forgot. Hopeless...
So, why do I not have anything to do at all? Well, my vessels are sailing and usually the problems however big, get resolved within a few hours maximum. And besides, the so-called problems do not occupy the full few hours. It usually require waiting and waiting, and more waiting.
For the first two years, there were plenty to learn because everything was new and fresh. Then things began to stablise during the third year. Now, I'm approaching my fourth, things are beginning to get boring. (That's why I'm here on blogger.) The company is not intending to teach us any further. No chance at trying chartering. It is not as if I am hard-core about learning chartering. But then, there's nothing new on operations. I'm not sure what I am looking for either. But I know I don't want it this way. I want some progress.
The hierachy here is also terrible. The bosses claim that the company is losing $, so we need to cut down on the costs such as paper, electricity, phone bills, etc. And there they are, spending $ flying on business class for redundant business trips (as they claimed), buying new furniture when the old ones are less than a year old. They freeze our wages, reduce our bonuses, cut our business trips, cut our sponsorships. So, what is the motivation to work here further?
I am looking forward to going back to school. I hope SP accepts my application. That way, my brain cells can start functioning again. Japanese classes are difficult but not stressful enough to motivate me to study. Well, since I have nothing to do here in the office, I'm taking the time to study and revise Japanese, since my final test is coming again. But my brain is... @#$%^&*, it never remembers. So, what I have studied 5 mins ago, I forgot. Hopeless...
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