@Crossroads
It's 2 weeks down to my wedding and everybody is pretty concerned about how's the preparations going on. Frankly speaking, I have no idea! Why so? I'm not sure what's undone; what else needs to be done; what's left to prepare; blah. I'm so busy with the SSC rehearsals that I am spending no time on the wedding at all. Not that I'm complaining - I'm dying to perform with SSO all my life, just that it came at the "wrong" time. No big deal about these singers of SSC. True that they do sing well but seriously, their EQ needs polishing. Some of them are seriously childish and super bad attitude. So what if you can sing well - that doesn't give you the right to look down on others!
As the wedding draws near, I'm getting homesick. Yes, ironic. I used to say I would look forward to move out of this house - live apart from my mom. Now, I'm really beginning to miss her. She has done so much for me, helping me with the wedding. I am really beginning to appreciate her. I don't know how I'll be coping with his mom. Whatever happens - must practise self control! I hope he does learn to be more independent. Stand up for himself and for me. Not everything also yes to his mom. It's time she "grows up" too and understand that his son is starting a family on his own. Time to back off. I can't help being reminded of the composition I wrote back in sec 3 (or is it sec 4?) titled "Mixed Feelings", talking about the girl, Clare having mixed feelings just before her wedding. At that point of time, I was probably just crapping and trying to sound grown-up. I'm not having mixed feelings about marrying him (or maybe I do?!) but mainly the sadness of leaving the family I've grown up in and to move out and be independent for real.
Apart from that, I'm really thinking again if it is worth my time to continue my Japanese studies. Not that I'll be needing it in the future, nor do I have further interest or flair in it. Fulfill my dream? Do music diploma? But then, what will I do with a music diploma as well? Teach? It is definitely good money, but...
Yes, there's a "but". Not sure "but" what though...
As the wedding draws near, I'm getting homesick. Yes, ironic. I used to say I would look forward to move out of this house - live apart from my mom. Now, I'm really beginning to miss her. She has done so much for me, helping me with the wedding. I am really beginning to appreciate her. I don't know how I'll be coping with his mom. Whatever happens - must practise self control! I hope he does learn to be more independent. Stand up for himself and for me. Not everything also yes to his mom. It's time she "grows up" too and understand that his son is starting a family on his own. Time to back off. I can't help being reminded of the composition I wrote back in sec 3 (or is it sec 4?) titled "Mixed Feelings", talking about the girl, Clare having mixed feelings just before her wedding. At that point of time, I was probably just crapping and trying to sound grown-up. I'm not having mixed feelings about marrying him (or maybe I do?!) but mainly the sadness of leaving the family I've grown up in and to move out and be independent for real.
Apart from that, I'm really thinking again if it is worth my time to continue my Japanese studies. Not that I'll be needing it in the future, nor do I have further interest or flair in it. Fulfill my dream? Do music diploma? But then, what will I do with a music diploma as well? Teach? It is definitely good money, but...
Yes, there's a "but". Not sure "but" what though...
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