Can I be determined enough?
I have always been weight-conscious. I felt that I was a teeny bitty weeny bit overweight. Okay, perhaps to say a teeny bitty weeny bit was a understatement. I always wanted to lose that additional kilo. I wanted to achieve forty five kilos or less, just like mummy. I told myself I was going to lose weight. I had to go on diet. I had to exercise. I had to do this, I had to do that. In the end, nothing ever happened. Perhaps the best that happened to me was during my wedding back in 2011. I got the closest to 45 kilos I had ever seen in my life ever since I hit beyond 45. I was 46 kilos. I went on a diet, skipping dinners and breakfasts. I went to the gym every evening after work and slogged on the treadmill for hours. And well, it did paid off a little. I still wasn't that slim but at least I could fit into my wedding gown.
Then I slacked off. I went on a couple of trips and my weight fluctuated up and down between 48-50kg. Still it was okay. I continued to visit the gym and go for marathons. The doctor said that I had low iron which caused me to pull back on the runs because I tend to be dizzy. But still, it was okay.
Then came 2012, end of the year, just because we went to Egypt, I found out that I had grown to 52kg - the highest ever in my record. And that got me panicking. But since I was going on a holiday, I stopped my exercising and dieting for two weeks. And then we came back to find out that we were going to have a baby. That was wonderful news! Pregnancy was probably one of the best times of my life. I could, for the first time, eat and eat and not worry about putting on weight. I was putting on weight on a good scale. Everything was going well. At the end of the pregnancy, I gained a total of 16kilos which was okay, maybe a little over weight but okay. Everybody told me it would go away after the baby was born.
The baby was born on 16th August 2013 but at a weight of only 2.6kilos.
I weighed myself the day I was discharged. 60kilos. Okay, it wasn't so bad. I lost 7 kilos. I just need to get rid of another 10kilos. For the first month, I ate as per normal. Hence the weight remained. For the second month, I wanted to try jogging but many other mothers told me not to so I didn't. Then I read articles which told me not to worry, since it tool 9 months to gain that weight, it make sense to have the same amount of time to lose it. Okay, so I believed them.
Now, today, my baby is already six months old. And I'm still weighing a whooping 58.6 kilos. I lost 3 kilos when I got really sick a month ago but that was all. My weight hovered between 57.8 - 58.8 kilos. My arms remained chunky, my mummy tummy was still around, my legs still looked like elephant trunks. I still couldn't fit in my clothes. I kept most of the clothes because everybody kept telling me that I would be able to fit into them one day. But I've waited, waited, waited... and I never did. I simply became so upset. Every morning I looked at the mirror and was disappointed with what I say. A fat-me. How can I ever lose all these weight?
Therefore, I am determined, or at least I want to try, to lose weight.
My target : 48 kilos by Easter
because I have a concert and I want to fit back into my concert attire
I have exactly 8 weeks.
I am 58 kilos now.
So I have to lose 10 kilos in 8 weeks. That would be 1.2 kilos a week.
I have to do this.
Then I slacked off. I went on a couple of trips and my weight fluctuated up and down between 48-50kg. Still it was okay. I continued to visit the gym and go for marathons. The doctor said that I had low iron which caused me to pull back on the runs because I tend to be dizzy. But still, it was okay.
Then came 2012, end of the year, just because we went to Egypt, I found out that I had grown to 52kg - the highest ever in my record. And that got me panicking. But since I was going on a holiday, I stopped my exercising and dieting for two weeks. And then we came back to find out that we were going to have a baby. That was wonderful news! Pregnancy was probably one of the best times of my life. I could, for the first time, eat and eat and not worry about putting on weight. I was putting on weight on a good scale. Everything was going well. At the end of the pregnancy, I gained a total of 16kilos which was okay, maybe a little over weight but okay. Everybody told me it would go away after the baby was born.
The baby was born on 16th August 2013 but at a weight of only 2.6kilos.
I weighed myself the day I was discharged. 60kilos. Okay, it wasn't so bad. I lost 7 kilos. I just need to get rid of another 10kilos. For the first month, I ate as per normal. Hence the weight remained. For the second month, I wanted to try jogging but many other mothers told me not to so I didn't. Then I read articles which told me not to worry, since it tool 9 months to gain that weight, it make sense to have the same amount of time to lose it. Okay, so I believed them.
Now, today, my baby is already six months old. And I'm still weighing a whooping 58.6 kilos. I lost 3 kilos when I got really sick a month ago but that was all. My weight hovered between 57.8 - 58.8 kilos. My arms remained chunky, my mummy tummy was still around, my legs still looked like elephant trunks. I still couldn't fit in my clothes. I kept most of the clothes because everybody kept telling me that I would be able to fit into them one day. But I've waited, waited, waited... and I never did. I simply became so upset. Every morning I looked at the mirror and was disappointed with what I say. A fat-me. How can I ever lose all these weight?
Therefore, I am determined, or at least I want to try, to lose weight.
My target : 48 kilos by Easter
because I have a concert and I want to fit back into my concert attire
I have exactly 8 weeks.
I am 58 kilos now.
So I have to lose 10 kilos in 8 weeks. That would be 1.2 kilos a week.
I have to do this.
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